Letting it go[?]

One thing that had been hard for me (and it still is), is to let go.. I find it trivial as how others can just easily let go of anything and just live on.. Maybe they're strong or maybe i'm just weak.. I see myself as someone who really treasures everything or at least something that has happened in my life which left a huge impact, be it negatively or positively..

The decision to let go is not that hard actually. I can decide to let go but its the matter of am I willing to let go and want to let it go? Having a bit, actually quite a lot of mixed feelings of trying to let something that is so precious for me but the only way i see of making things better is to put this matter to rest and move on but i can't.. well after giving much thought actually i can, i realized that i don't want to let go.. I feel like i'm contradicting myself.. a part of me say's let go and cling on to God's perfect timing and another part of me say's don't.. what if things can get better if it stays the same.. yup.. uncertainty tries to play a major role in my life right now but i'm trying my best, not to let it but then again.. i am weak, i guess.. i know it won't last..

Times like these, I am thankful, I got God on my side.. i know i should be thankful on every occasions.. well, i'm trying to.. well, that's for now la.. till then, write or rather type again some time later.. haha..

oh y, people asked why post tonnes of personal stuff on blog.. 'you want every one to know ar?' and ' i thought its personal wan?' well, for me.. i get the peace when i just express everything on my mind and look back on what i went through.. Diary will be good but i prefer this alternative.. haha.. anyway enjoy your week days ahead guys and girls..

[Remember?]

days before Freshmen Night
You were preparing and,
I gave a helping hand
Cutting flyers all day,
Was all that happened,
That's when I saw,
You for you...

Your heart was beating fast,
You couldn't fall asleep,
how i wish i could hold you,
and as i saw you to sleep,
I watched the night pass me by,
And that's when i know
You're for me...

remember when we talked outside hostel,
hours and hours just passes us by,
remember when you almost broke down,
and i was there to pick you up,
all the while you did the same too
remember when we were apart,
life doesn't feels so right
oh i remember.. i remember..

the way you smile and
the way you brush your hair
oh i can't forget itall the time we had,
i wish i can tell all
all the small things
that you did and said
how i cherish them really

maybe you didn't know
maybe you didn't see
all these i saw of you
one thing i want you to know
if these songs were to fade away
remember the time we spent together
I'll hold it right here forever

remember when i lost myself,
you were there to search,
remember when i hold your hand
that kept me warm that cold night,
remember when you needed space
i was dumbfounded and
didn't know what to do and
remember when i sent those smses,
it gave you tears and hurts
remember when I said sorry
told you that it was history
all i say is sorry
and it feels like it's not enough
till you say it's okay
won't you come and say

we're on a ride to nowhere
and it doesn't matter
as long as you there
nowhere is somewhere
you asked me where i want us to go,
i say it now anywhere or nowhere
as long as you there

[above is the some lyrics that i came up, not that great but that's how i felt, the 1st and 3rd is not in the song coz its too long, hope you'll like it]

Random Quotes...

It's has been a long time since i've post something or anything..haha.. no internet la, sorry ya.. anyway i was just surfing the Net and came across some quotes from the movies that i've watched and oh boy, it stirred a lot of memories that i really cherished.. so, here's some,

Lt. Col. Jimmy Doolittle: There's nothing stronger than the heart of a volunteer.

(now,this sentence is really something, it's rings true actually... A project or a work or anything can be done with sheer hardwork but it's actually like one man show.. Not many really like or agree with what we want to do,so somehow they are forced indirectly to like it or do it, as i see it, it won't last long actually.. I pray that when I'm about to do anything, i'll have a bunch of pals that shares the same passion, the fire and able to be there for each other when we're about to do something.. we will volunteer ourselves to support whatever each other's undertakings. And truth to be told, nobody likes to be forced right...There's nothing stronger than the heart of a volunteer, now that is something that last long...)

Lt. Col. Jimmy Doolittle: You know what top secret is?

Rafe: Yes, sir. It's the kind of mission where you get medals, but they send 'em to your relatives.

Pelabuhan Mutiara

Bandar Bidadari

Seth: I'd rather have one breath of her hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand than an eternity without it. One. (this reminds me of her)

Seth: You're a good doctor, I can feel it

Maggie: That's pretty flimsy proof.

Seth: Close your eyes... what am I doing?

Maggie: You're touching me.

Seth: How do you know?

Maggie: I can feel it.

Seth: You should learn to use that more often.

(oh man, that's a very good pick up line indeed)

Maggie: When they ask me what I liked best, I'll say it was you. (same here, girl.. hehe)

Maximus: I knew a man who once said, 'Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back.

Maximus: What we do in life echoes in eternity

(What we sow is what we reap,amen)

well, that's it i guess.. got a lot but then the post will get longer and longer and by then maybe it would get the Guiness records for the longest post of quotes.. anyway will post something later i think since i am in CIT lab.. for once the internet is not that laggy and i might end up liking CIT.. i know it unbelievable but then again miracles do happen right.. haha.. i thought i will never say this but CIT lab rocks, for now..

Random thoughts...

"Mama always said life was like a box a chocolates, never know what you're gonna get."
Tom Hanks (Forrest Gump) in Forrest Gump(1994)

- oh man, i can watch this movie again and again and won't get bored of it.. just randomly went online and saw this quote.. brought memories of this movie.. hmm..life is like a box of chocolates, bitter and sweet the same time.. one can only wait and taste for himself/herself.. what is in store for me? one can only wonder..