[Alone]

here i am, left alone.. though I have a lot of friends to laugh with, but it seems there's no one to cry with.. I feel so tired of telling people on how i feel but none understands, not even you.. no one there, to defend me or even try to wear my heavy laden shoes now..

Its all a misunderstanding,they say easily without even trying to listen what i'm trying to say..

Friend.. where are you?

please try to understand.. be my shield..

Are we thankful?


Think twice before waste anything.. or even ramble about what we don't have.. that new motorola phone that we always wanted, a new shirt, a raise in our allowance..

think twice before we spend..

We don't fully appreciate what we have, till we lost them.. that is often how we learn to be thankful, unfortunately...

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For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.'

[Four letter word]

I'm sorry for speaking, than keeping silence..

As vulnerable as i can be, i lay down my defense..
You caught me off guard and here i am..

please stop breaking my heart, there's nothing left to be broken anymore.. let me pick it up please..

The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship.

[Sir Francis Bacon]

[Use me]

All who have been using me, are welcome to come and use again me.. use me as how i've been used.. I've had enough of these..

Stop living in denial and come..







Use me...

[Lagu Emo Ku]

Apakah dayaku?
Tuk' membuat mu mengerti,
Ku bukan sekadar memori,
yang kini kian menghilang

Apakah cintamu?
Ibarat api-api,
Berkelipan di nun langit,
Ku tak terdaya,
mencapai mu lagi

Selamat tinggal Julieku,
Semoga mu senyum selalu,
Ku hanya bisa muja mu dari sisi gelapku,
tak terdaya ku mendekati mu,
Semuanya berakhir malam ini..


I was just wandering around today at college hall and sat down.. I was waiting for my groupmates to have a discussion on our assignment.. Apparently they were late and so.. started to scribble some words down.. and surprisingly, It's in Bahasa Malaysia and some Indon words added.. hehe..

who's Julie? well, it actually my direct translation of my Juliette.. you know, from Romeo and Juliette stuff.. Well, here i'm talking bout her..

And again.. here i am.. waiting for someone to compose melody and music for this words of mine.. I really wish I have singing ability and playing guitar pro skills like Gerard and Deswyn, Kush or Jon woo.. anyone.. I really wish.. so that i don have to ask others to do it for me.. i have no idea whether they might thought that this fella has nothing better to do and always want us to compose.. but that's the fact, i can't.. but that's for now..

Somehow I feel God a bit bias.. there's alot ppl of there who don't appreciate their talents.. how i wish i have theirs.. haha.. anyway.. that's all..

Selamat tinggal

[lost?]

forsaken,forgotten,
left in the dark
to figure out if
the light will shine again...
Life has never been the same again..
Emptiness clouds my heart
and it feels nothing...

Are you there?
Are you for real?
where are your arms?
I can feel them no more..
Where are your whispers?
I can hear them no more

It's like the rain is pouring when the sun is shining
It's like standing on shifting sand
and i'm sinking deeper and deeper..

Standing at the crossroad,
looking at the signs,
just to realize that i am lost..

When will I realize?
when will I see?
past the smiles ,
that hides the pain inside
that only You can take it away..